movie marathon in a long time

I watched some movies last week, most of them are Oscar nominees. Though the Oscar was over, but the nomination list is always a movie choice guide for me to follow. I've watched Milk, Slumdog Millionaire, The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, Vicky Christina Barcelona, Revolutionary Road, and The Reader all in a roll. I'm not really a Award follower geek, but kinna a Oscar goer. I do believe in this theory, i don't have all the time for all the movies, but at least i know that the award mentioned movies are worth watching, at least at some points. For Milk, i would've watch it, for the matter of the subject. For Benjamin Button, the sake of the celebrities stardom power. For Vicky Christina Barcelona, the hot Spanish couple instead of Woody Allen. For Revolutionary Road and The Reader, we have the Extraordinary Kate Winslet. For Slumdog, it's a no, not before all the awards it got, but after i watched it, of cause i found the uniqueness of it, sure it has its way to manage all the awards, including winning the best picture of Oscar.

James Franco in Milk

Pitt & Blanchett in The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Cruz & Bardem in Vicky Christina Barcelona

Slumdog Millionaire

Winslet in The Reader

bad thing, good thing

I thought i have losing the faith of blogging, now i guess, maybe i've been too busy, maybe i was really losing my faith on blogging, maybe i just shouldn't force myself to write. When words come to your head, you'll know what to write.
My company had a staff meeting last Friday, so news announced that my company isn't doing well, or bad or pretty bad. We are losing money, a lot of money. So the company trip is postponed, or to be more frank, it's canceled. It's not unexpected, and i didn't see anybody was having so much of disappointment. But for me...
He wasn't going, he couldn't. He had a plan on flying back to his hometown. We were first planned to share a room on the trip. But the date fell on the same day he planned to go back. Then i thought i didn't fell good about going too. So now when the trip is called off, i fell... cool.

what an extinct species

Well, i still have nothing about myself to blog, but i heard of something every extraordinary today. My bff, El, told me that she lost her purse today, but she was so fuxking unbelievably lucky found it after 2 hours. Okay, this is how it happened, She lost it at somewhere, and couldn't find it, or didn't even know where she lost it. So everybody told her to give up and get it reported, of cause i would have asked her to do that also. then after she reported the lost, somebody called up her 2nd phone, which she left in the house while she was out. The guy called a couple of time and left a message to ask El to call back. So after she got home, she saw the message. She immediately called back, and that was the guy who picked up her purse. Then she arranged a time to meet up to get back her purse. OMG, she is so fuxking lucky, even i told her that i doubted myself would do that. There was a few hundreds in her purse, i'm so not believe that this is happening in this world. Even El herself had gave up after a few searches, she knew that if somebody had picked it up, she would have no change to get it back. That guy is real good man, his name is Danny Goh, well, he gave his name card to El. You good, Danny.

Mmm, at least good things still happen.

happy birthday

Happy? well, quite too, because he's next to me now. Not celebrating with me, we are both working. Still, that makes me a happy birthday. Ya, pathetic, ya, i know, but can't help it.

happy cny 2009

Still can make it since today is the last day of this year cny. Wow, i've been so left out from the blogging world for so long. This thingy has been fading off, if the last post was a milestone for me, then carry on for the next 1 is difficult.
I'm still fucked up with my love life. Work is still busy, but fortunately it's in a different way. How should i say this, i'm actually still doing what i was doing, but at the same time, i'm learning and working on something new, totally new for me, and i have so much fun doing it. I'm supposed to be more busy than i was, because beside working on my own job, i have to occupy extra time for my extra new job scoop. It's hell busy, but at least i know what i'm doing, and i'm enjoy doing, hopefully soon i'll be all on this, and fuck the old job position.

happy new year 2009

happy new year 2009.
This is also my 100th post. Wow, what a milestone. This is definitely an accomplishment for me, i think i've never written that much in my life. Congrats.

merry christmas

Christmas has never been a pleasant festive to me, it is still not, and i think it'll never be. Again, I didn't have fun for this year's christmas.

I've been writing this for the whole day, still struggle on how to put this words, my head is spinning...

First, I think i had a pretty likable day on Monday, before all the bad news knocked my door. i had a great day with him, our first, and i guess now it's the last. We were both on leave, so we spent the day together. My car was in workshop, he came to fetch me, we had lunch, a movie, some walks. Then we went back to my place, got dressed up coz we got to attend the company christmas dinner. I gave him the christmas present i bought for him, he was happy. Just happy, wasn't the reaction i expected to get. Then i guess, nothing seems to be positive, I don't know.

Then, the party, sigh, the party was close to awful, there was some memorable excitements, most of the time, we were SS ourselves, the rest of it was sigh... I think it was because there was a horrific news came before the party. We had a staff meeting earlier, i didn't attend. At the meeting, 'no bonus' were announced, so everybody face looked like cibai. Some even left right after the christmas presents were given out. Those all start me another unpleasant christmas.

Nothing is getting better since then. I was working on the eve, went Karaoke the night with horrible feeling. Stay at home almost all alone on the christmas, went yam cha with my girl friends at night. My girl friends and i talked about 'it', then i decided to make things clear so that i won't regret. So that night i texted him, throw it all out, then... he replied... and it was... sigh.

I failed. Not that i didn't expect this, but how i wish this could be the last thing to happen. Sigh, i know it's silly, knowing that this is happening, everything is so expected, but how could i still can't take it? I don't know, maybe i'm not that unbreakable? I guess i've given my all, no matter what happens, i shouldn't regret, at least i've tried my best. And thankfully i have friends who had been so supportive during this period of time, they are the best, i love y'all. These two days was pretty tough for me, but i'm still here, i guess i can get thru this.

My thinking has got all messed up now, i don't even know what did i write here. Well, fuck it, take some cheerful time with the pictures taken on the christmas dinner. and then there's his face, tiu...

My favorite poeple, my gang

The fav 4

mm...

things we did to keep the night not so boring, syok sendiri

things were getting a bit outta control then

the group shot

plenty more in my facebook, if you know how to get there.
He's cute, isn't he? Well, gimme some time, wound takes time to heal, okay?

Merry christmas & happy new year

phew...

What a day, or a week, or a month i should say.
Sigh, when i went collect my car from car park after work yesterday, i found out that my car got banged! Tiu nia sing, all out of a sudden, i have to spend extra money to fix my car. It's not that bad, but bad enough. Now i have to spend a few hundreds more when i already had spent so much this month! Sigh! After all the christmas shopping, my car insurance renewal, all the bills, now i have this. Before this, I was planning to get him a watch, now, god knows. Arghh... i wish am rich.

My company is going to have a Christmas party the coming monday, I've never got a a big one since the last time i left here, well, i had a few small in between, but not as big. This is going to be a fun one, at leaast am hoping, and it's better be. The theme for the party is 'Back to School'. It's lame, who doesn't know, but let's pray it'll turn out to be a fun 1. Of cause me and my girlfriends will dress up nicely, do expect some funny pictures!

hmm...

hmm...

Then i have the first post about him, my head is getting all occupied slowly...
He's been having a rough week, so many rare and unfortunate things happened that had made his head spinning, he's just sooo 'sui'. Looking at his gloomy frustrated face, i don't feel any better. This week has really haunted him badly, i wish this could come to an end, it kills me seeing him going through the challenges, all at a time.
For a personal reason, i'm glad i've been around him when all this happened, even if it's just a small hand helping him out during the incidents. what if those could win me something...

girls day out 1

This is suppose to be written on last Saturday.
Having a girl day out for a break away is just something that you couldn't ask for any better, especially for my fucking busy working life. I never sure if this life is the one that i or anyone else should ever go after, but in a way, life can only be lived on if you have a living to make for. Sigh, it might be a little depressing, but thinking that i'm only 1 in a million of the stereotype, and not 1 of a few who had the ability to live a fantastic life, well, why don't i just suck it and live on. People who read this might also get annoyed by my negativeness, but are you really having something better? At least i'm still happy, not most of the time, at least part of the time. Maybe i'm a easily satisfied (滿足) person.

Before all were started, we actually had a lousy night day before, but it's not what i'd like to put in words, so forget about it, after all, it was just a great day, it was so much fun. People were great, i like them a lot. There weren't a particular thing that really cheered a lot, not that i could remembered, it was the 'day'. I just had so much fun or should i say, we all had it. And even i had to be the driver that day, i think i spent about 1 and a half to send 'em all home, and i almost rounded the Klang valley, but the fun was over it.
And we did some crazy things, like this...

I think i shouldn't deny this, it has something to do with him also, ha.