contrast

I think i've been to heaven & hell all in 1 day. Today, my experience is so roller-coaster-ed. Actually, i had a bad morning, i was so down, it was so awful. Well, am not gonna say it, but it can be concluded as 折墮 (misery? what word suits better?). It means looking at what you are getting now after so much that you've done.

Then i went to settle my house signing documents. Then rush back to office for helping up Louis. Today is Elly birthday, we had a lovely dinner with her. It's like i was in hell in the morning, went for a transit for heaven in the making, then jump onto a fast lane adventure helping out a friend. Then having dinner in heaven, i mean the dinner was nice. Ha...

it's over x 100

How many times have i said this, it's over. It's over! I'm sick of it. For dick's sake, can somebody throw me something to distract my attention? I think i really need some distraction. But, can it be something cute?

not so happening

It's been a while since the last time i fell sick. I'm feeling exhausted these few days, sick, having many works to do, and i feel so uninspired to blog, i tried a few times to write somethings, but i failed. I've been working pretty hard on freelance job over the past week, I'm not sure if that made me sick, but i was dead-tired. I hope the new album from Madonna can somehow cheer me up a bit. Well, at least the cover does, does it?

headache

I've got many things going around, not work, definitely. I have to renew my car insurance, road tax, thinking of leaving my job, looking for new job, looking for hotels, thinking of what to buy for christmas presents (ewww, this is the worst), is it really so much things going around, or it's just me? Sigh, so messy.
I never really like christmas, what is it so 'suppose to be happy' actually?!?! I always don't get it, is everybody has to have the feeling of joy for the festive?! Then what is it? the trees? the lights? or what? I kinna hate buying christmas present, have to think what to buy, what people like, affordable price, it's so headache, and some more you'll never get anything you like in return (not when u have no budget to buy people nice pressie). Then what is the fun about it? Am i pathetic? I can never feel the joy of it, not even if i try really hard. Except i could get a nice sleep on the day, because it's holiday.
Or maybe i just never like things that are commonly likable. It's like, when people say how hot is David Beckham, i would say i'll rather hook with Mrs. Beckham, or how people crazy about Harry Potter, i haven't even watch the first episode of the series, i just don't do 'should' & 'must'.
I'm getting my machine tomorrow, exciting.

boring1

I knew this is going to happen, haha, i'm not surprise at all. When was the last time I wrote a post, it was like 20 years ago?!?! Haha. It's my pattern, i always start up things passionately, then it'll fade off, losing all the way till it ends. Sad kan? Don't bother me, can't be helped.
I wasn't that busy the last few weeks, in fact, i was quite super free. I had only 2 jobs in October, of cause i couldn't believe it. Ever since i joined the company, I've been working like hell, working on all the accounts & jobs alone, or with some not so happening colleague, (almost like working alone, I didn't mean you, honey), so, you can imagine, even the toilet is running out of toilet paper is my business (well, it still is). Fortunately, i didn't waste the once in a life time chance to do something else, i had a freelance job, i compiled my portfolio (finally) the first time in 4 years (ops). I had it done yesterday and showered to my friends, then I was criticized kao kao, eww, bad she, hate her. I thought it would be quite okay, who knows, sigh...
I heard a shocking news (or secret) from a friend of mine days ago. It really shocked me. I screamed and screamed, and jump up and down, and screamed and had a few moments of coma, and screamed when i got the news, I only stopped when I found out that i wasn't alone in the office (I thought I was). It's scary, unexpected, big, surprise, and shocking. Unfortunately, i cannot tell the story, (not to everyone, hehe) the person had my word by not telling anyone that. Even worse, I actually told that to 3 person (ops)... so far. Please forgive me, honey, i didn't mean to spread it, they are so not involve in any of these, so, they are threat-less. I hope it's okay. I was so stress, when i knew that I was told the first and only, it's so stressful by keeping it alone. Some more, it's not like somebody would die after i tell to someone, so it's even more suffering. But i still have to keep, so, for those who is interested, wait for the person to come to you, I hope he/she will.