happy 53th birthday

Haha, never thought there will be somebody who tracks my blog for updates, :p

好多謝Chris, 亦都唔好意試辜負咗你，是時候update下啦！

Chris was asking about my update for the instant 2, but i really didn't know what to say, well i still don't. I thought it was too instant, i even felt 'pai sei' to write it down, furthermore, now that is over, i don't see a point to write it down neither... ok, maybe i'll try to write.

Everything that happened to me this few months is just crazy , i talked to my girlfriends, they were like, wow, what's wrong with me, or am i alright? It's just way too crazy... I asked my girlfriends could it be the place? or was it me?? Since i moved in here in April, my adventure has never been stopped! Ya, i've been meeting guy after guy, i even told myself, whoa... Okay, the instant 1 might be a mistake, since i never been in this 'thing' for so long, maybe i thought, ok, that could be it, and i blew it. Then, i thought mmm, maybe the instant 2 seems more likely, i tried, i really did, but it didn't last longer than a menstrual cycle, ops. I was quite numb then, i thought, ok, even if i wasn't getting any, whatever.

Then he came, ya, the instant 3, well because there were all too instant, even more instant than i could have time to put them in particular post, so you didn't miss the post of instant 3 or 4. Again, i couldn't believe it, i've been single for almost 3 fucking years, once it comes, it comes together. It was unbelievable.

Mr instant 3, at first i thought we are so distance, we come from different part of the world, i took it as a no in the beginning, but it progressed. Actually, i was a bit disappointed when i first met him, he wasn't what i pictured he'd be, and he didn't gimme anything that i would think am through. But... the night went well. Phew, i thought... have i? was i? I thought i had something, but there is a 'but'. Well, at least i know i've had fallen for him, i was sure just for that few days. I believe that when the thing come, you will really know. Ya, even if he's stinks, fat, arrogant, stupid, childish, ignorant, rude, obnoxious, or he's a total dickhead or asshole. I think i always fall for the wrong guy, dickhead, straight guy, somebody's boyfriend... hmm.

to be continue...

casey...

It's been 4 & a half years, how could i don't feel a thing? We've been together for 4 & a half years.

It's actually longer than i expected. Even when the seller sold him to me, he said i would change it after 2 years, but it lasted for 4+. It might not be that long compare to some others, but i guess it's not a short period of time...

I'll definitely miss you, Casey.

Casey & i

Casey

last number shown on Casey

the other thing i miss about Casey,

the Kenwood player that had accompanied me for years

Ciao!

just can't point it out

Was so hunger to put this in words, i was a bit lost, soo need to say it out, and wanted to throw it here too, but had no time to do this, now am about to sleep, reserve it first.

Instead, i actually borrow my gals' ears, thank you so much for the ears, my lovely ah Char & Skey. I needed it badly, luckily you were there.

Btw, thanks Chris too. Seems like he's 1 of the very few people who still reads this. Hahaha.

... to be continue

smash?

Yeah, i know it's been a while. Merry Xmas and happy new year. Suddenly i have a good feeling of writing. Could this be the longest time that i've ever written? Maybe.
I guess maybe i was pretty relax on myself lately, it could be good, or it could be faulty. I'm clueless.
The year is ending, maybe a little recap. My house loan has been approved, although it was too much hassle to talk about. Still single, not that i enjoy the current status, but i guess i'm getting adapted to it, hmm. Oh, the unidentified post titled the beautiful 10 days. Alright, it was good, i was happy, not that it's not good enough to put those in words, but i guess, maybe it's the best to label it anonymous. I guess it was sweet yet blur. Maybe because everything happen too fast, and it faded unnoticed. I didn't feel much bad about it, maybe just a bit uneasy. I thought his appearance meant something, who knows, it was just a smash hit. Taking it as a beautiful affair, seems to be the right way to get it over.
I'm getting good at this, i was unawarely moving on...

phew, 10 days...

Phew... from the start till the unwanted end, all in 10 days. I don't want to, but i guess till it starts again, it has to be ended...

It was a fast & furious 10 days, but it was memorable. Started with an unexpected meet up, like i never met any new friend for years, then suddenly there's an appearance of somebody, and it wasn't planned. Made a new friend, followed by a few nights of some get-to-know-each-other chat, till late. Then an opportunity of a half day off, a nervous but excited turn-out-to-be-a-date dinner. Later the night, we mmm but mm mmm, i was so hah ha. Had a break, i went back to hometown. After i got back, a crazy drinking party at friend's house, mmm... wow.. wooow.... wa. A meet up again 'yam cha' for some catching up. A movie date. And now, i just came back from a dinner, we talked, made up some mind, talked, and... no, i guess that's it.
It feels good, i enjoyed it, it was... i was happy. Still smiling at it.
At least i'm 90% thru that Geli... hahaha, that already worth laughing!

He likes to listen to Angels & Airwaves

catcing up

I had a dinner with my lovely girlfriend last night. It felt great. I never talked so much in a long time. Me and her can really talk, and it's something that i never thought about, not when we first met. I mean we are so so so different, our friends, background, everything, but we really can talk, even when there are only 2 of us. It doesn't happen very often i guess, or to most of the people, like if i ask you, how many friends of yours who can talk with you 1 on 1. Well, i have sa few, and she's 1 of them.
1 of highlight of the dinner is, she's the third friend of mine who told me that 'she's dating' in 1 week. Ya, at first i didn't realize that, then when i was smiling at her, she asked, what are you smiling for? Then i remembered, oh, she's the third, and it's all happened in a week. Is that a coincidence, or something else, i don't know. But i'm so happy for them, wishing them the best.
It was also a good dinner for laughter, that's it felt so great. I guess i've been having so little laughter lately, it's so minimal. Not that i don't know what is going on, just that i don't even have the energy to bother it. I don't know, i feel powerless on everything, nothing seems right. My company is having so much trouble around, retrenchment, pay-cut, everybody is leaving, though this bother me the least, but the 'qi' already is so negative. My body condition is getting worse, i'm not sure whether is physically or mentally, my backache is getting worse, i'm easily get tired, or am i already old?!?, shit, i'm just fucking 28! Not to say my worst part, it haunts me the most. Sigh, everything is... wrong. I hate to say it, but i can't lie.
So, thanks for the dinner.

or more than like?

Okay, it definitely was not, not that i wish it was. But i enjoyed it very much, much more than much.
Being picked up (without asked for). Went for a more than average Japanese lunch. He paid for the lunch. He got the popcorns. i bought the movie tickets. Watched a movie. Shopped for a while. He bought a pair of shoes (which i saw it sometimes before, wanted to buy but couldn't get the size, coincident.). Then I droved his car leaving the mall to meet a friend, and dinner together, with another friend (okay, this is a bit off). I almost felt like it was, maybe a kiss or two was the only missing...
:-)