contrast

I think i've been to heaven & hell all in 1 day. Today, my experience is so roller-coaster-ed. Actually, i had a bad morning, i was so down, it was so awful. Well, am not gonna say it, but it can be concluded as 折墮 (misery? what word suits better?). It means looking at what you are getting now after so much that you've done.

Then i went to settle my house signing documents. Then rush back to office for helping up Louis. Today is Elly birthday, we had a lovely dinner with her. It's like i was in hell in the morning, went for a transit for heaven in the making, then jump onto a fast lane adventure helping out a friend. Then having dinner in heaven, i mean the dinner was nice. Ha...

merry christmas

Christmas has never been a pleasant festive to me, it is still not, and i think it'll never be. Again, I didn't have fun for this year's christmas.

I've been writing this for the whole day, still struggle on how to put this words, my head is spinning...

First, I think i had a pretty likable day on Monday, before all the bad news knocked my door. i had a great day with him, our first, and i guess now it's the last. We were both on leave, so we spent the day together. My car was in workshop, he came to fetch me, we had lunch, a movie, some walks. Then we went back to my place, got dressed up coz we got to attend the company christmas dinner. I gave him the christmas present i bought for him, he was happy. Just happy, wasn't the reaction i expected to get. Then i guess, nothing seems to be positive, I don't know.

Then, the party, sigh, the party was close to awful, there was some memorable excitements, most of the time, we were SS ourselves, the rest of it was sigh... I think it was because there was a horrific news came before the party. We had a staff meeting earlier, i didn't attend. At the meeting, 'no bonus' were announced, so everybody face looked like cibai. Some even left right after the christmas presents were given out. Those all start me another unpleasant christmas.

Nothing is getting better since then. I was working on the eve, went Karaoke the night with horrible feeling. Stay at home almost all alone on the christmas, went yam cha with my girl friends at night. My girl friends and i talked about 'it', then i decided to make things clear so that i won't regret. So that night i texted him, throw it all out, then... he replied... and it was... sigh.

I failed. Not that i didn't expect this, but how i wish this could be the last thing to happen. Sigh, i know it's silly, knowing that this is happening, everything is so expected, but how could i still can't take it? I don't know, maybe i'm not that unbreakable? I guess i've given my all, no matter what happens, i shouldn't regret, at least i've tried my best. And thankfully i have friends who had been so supportive during this period of time, they are the best, i love y'all. These two days was pretty tough for me, but i'm still here, i guess i can get thru this.

My thinking has got all messed up now, i don't even know what did i write here. Well, fuck it, take some cheerful time with the pictures taken on the christmas dinner. and then there's his face, tiu...

My favorite poeple, my gang

The fav 4

mm...

things we did to keep the night not so boring, syok sendiri

things were getting a bit outta control then

the group shot

plenty more in my facebook, if you know how to get there.
He's cute, isn't he? Well, gimme some time, wound takes time to heal, okay?

Merry christmas & happy new year

phew...

What a day, or a week, or a month i should say.
Sigh, when i went collect my car from car park after work yesterday, i found out that my car got banged! Tiu nia sing, all out of a sudden, i have to spend extra money to fix my car. It's not that bad, but bad enough. Now i have to spend a few hundreds more when i already had spent so much this month! Sigh! After all the christmas shopping, my car insurance renewal, all the bills, now i have this. Before this, I was planning to get him a watch, now, god knows. Arghh... i wish am rich.

My company is going to have a Christmas party the coming monday, I've never got a a big one since the last time i left here, well, i had a few small in between, but not as big. This is going to be a fun one, at leaast am hoping, and it's better be. The theme for the party is 'Back to School'. It's lame, who doesn't know, but let's pray it'll turn out to be a fun 1. Of cause me and my girlfriends will dress up nicely, do expect some funny pictures!

cibai face

I went back to the One academy this morning. I left 2 paintings last time when i graduated, and it was like 20 years ago. I know it was a long time ago, and i should have collected it, but I've never been to Sunway ever since i left the college (or maybe once or twice), and was busy working, and lazy. So I called a few weeks ago, asked for assistance to look for the artworks, though i had prepared that they might lost 'em. After a week, i called for second time, somebody said she needed some more time, then i called for the third time, and finally, thank god, after I spoke to the another girl to help me on this, she found it, even though she only found 1 peace, i feel so thankful.
So, i went to collect it, once i entered the building, i saw this cibai face bitch, who is the front desk receptionist, who has been working there for like forever, she's been there even before i studied the college. I was so feeling like throwing out when i saw her cibai face, ewww. Why the fuck is she still working there, she hasn't retired? How old is she? 250? What's wrong her fucking ugly hair? She has this few lines of horror fringe hanging on her forehead, and a ponytail tied behind, i bet she hasn't changed the hair style for 20 years. She is the fucking worst receptionist in the whole planet, and the most rude and ill-mannered bitch in the universe. I'm so fucking don't understand why the hell is she still working there?!?!?! Is she been shaking the boss or what? Even the students from my batch had been complaining this bitch for her fucking rudeness, nobody ever liked her, everybody hates her!!! If god would ever let me make 1 wish (for today), I'm so fucking wishing her to be sent to Mars. She belongs there. Please, somebody do something. I think am sending a letter to TOA to tell them, they really need to change their receptionist. Who the hell would like to study in that college seeing a big fat cibai face displaying at their entrance. She is the best representative of a face of cibai. Arghhh...
Anyway, thanks for the girl who helped me on the painting, that made my day not that bad after all, thank god. And she's pretty though... haha.

UPDATE

What a surprise, I just got a call from the One, Somebody called and told me that they actually read the letter (ya, i wrote the complain letter), and informed me that they felt sorry about my incident, (WOW. I didn't expect this to happen, i thought they would just ignore my letter.) She also thanked me for bringing this out to them (even it's only a small matter), and they will solve this internally (how will it be?). See, we should never just keep quiet, voice out whenever, whatever you feel unfair.