Life has been getting so meaningless lately, I always have the feeling that i haven't done enough things in a day, or should i say i've been wasting time? I don't really get it, everything seems to be so path-less. I'm so clueless at my work, always stuck in the condition that i don't even know why am i in the office, messy situation, always struggle about 'okay, what should i do next?', is it the job or it's me? Thinking about leaving the job, of cause, it's like the thought i've been having in my mind right after the day i joined. Then where to go? Is that the place where i should be going? (not the rite time to mention the name of the place), still doubting about should or shouldn't i go back?!? but then, where else? I know how much i understand the line of 'the more that you wait, the more time that you waste' (remember that?), but i'm just too pathetic in decision making.
The new year is getting so close, i think something just has to be done. Setting up new year resolution? If i set something too hard to accomplish, it's pointless, but if set something easy, i don't get the glory of achievement. Well, i'm never a good planner, but at least i'm having something in my mind which i probably will try it my best.
Resolution 1: Get in shape.
Ya, i know round is a shape, but i want something looks more delicious. I've been going to gym for a year plus, i still don't really see any results on me (well, there might be a little, but no major change), what's wrong with me?!?! Am i not discipline enough? No, i forced myself to go at least 3 times a week, then what? I really have no idea, well, maybe i don't work hard enough, i think i just have to work harder, or maybe change the routine. I just wanna get rid of my tummy, it's been there for centuries. I don't hope to get the wash board shape, but at least make it flat, plz...
Resolution 2: Change job.
I'm kinna tired working in my current company, i started to work here even before Bitchy Spears gone mad (she's been mad for years), so i really need to get outta here. Here has left nothing for me to stay, except the flexible working hour, the long lunch hour, the unlimited excess of internet for me to download videos and movies, having my own room, working without boss in the office most of the time (or all the time), (therefore) having the exclusivity to sleep at working hour, day dreaming, shopping, net surfing, msn-ing, blogging, and etc. So, am i mad or what, aren't those are what every working class has been dreaming to have? Maybe i'm just mad, but i know these are so unhealthy, i feel like i'm degenerating... sigh.
Resolution 3: Make more money.
Of cause changing job could be one of the way, but i mean not only that. I may want to try out new things to get extra. Look for some other ways to earn more money, freelancing, do some business maybe.
Resolution 4: Get myself my own place.
Well, i said get myself, i meant get it by myself (or else who would?). I hope i would be able to get myself my own place in the coming year (years). Although i still don't see the possibility is big enough, but i'll try hard. I always been trying, maybe not hard enough.
Resolution 5: Meet more people.
I always have the face writing 'don't come near me!', or 'fuck off' or 'leave me alone'. I think i have the most unapproachable cibai face in the whole Singapore (well, i don't live there, but the dear place is famous with cibai faces). I never good at mingle with people, with stranger. Maybe i don't like to, or maybe i'm just bad at doing it. So, i hope i could change it, in order to have a more pleasant future in mingling.
I'm not somebody that difficult to pleased, i'm think i'm kinna simple. I don't plan for something too extraordinary, or too impossible to happen. Ya, i know impossible is nothing, but impossible is also something that has the least possibility to happen. I know something could just never happen to sudden people.
UPDATE
I didn't mean to leave you guys outta my reason of staying in this place, so sorry. I might be in the situation of desperado, but i really didn't mean that. Of cause i like you guys, in fact, those are the reason i enjoyed working here. I might not meet as much people as i work in other company, but knowing you guys is just amazing. Being around you guys is so much fun (okay, excluded those stressful expensive lunch), maybe is because every each of you is so unique and hilarious, i just like you guys. So, don't be silly, of cause you are my favorite.
The new year is getting so close, i think something just has to be done. Setting up new year resolution? If i set something too hard to accomplish, it's pointless, but if set something easy, i don't get the glory of achievement. Well, i'm never a good planner, but at least i'm having something in my mind which i probably will try it my best.
Resolution 1: Get in shape.
Ya, i know round is a shape, but i want something looks more delicious. I've been going to gym for a year plus, i still don't really see any results on me (well, there might be a little, but no major change), what's wrong with me?!?! Am i not discipline enough? No, i forced myself to go at least 3 times a week, then what? I really have no idea, well, maybe i don't work hard enough, i think i just have to work harder, or maybe change the routine. I just wanna get rid of my tummy, it's been there for centuries. I don't hope to get the wash board shape, but at least make it flat, plz...Resolution 2: Change job.
I'm kinna tired working in my current company, i started to work here even before Bitchy Spears gone mad (she's been mad for years), so i really need to get outta here. Here has left nothing for me to stay, except the flexible working hour, the long lunch hour, the unlimited excess of internet for me to download videos and movies, having my own room, working without boss in the office most of the time (or all the time), (therefore) having the exclusivity to sleep at working hour, day dreaming, shopping, net surfing, msn-ing, blogging, and etc. So, am i mad or what, aren't those are what every working class has been dreaming to have? Maybe i'm just mad, but i know these are so unhealthy, i feel like i'm degenerating... sigh.Resolution 3: Make more money.
Of cause changing job could be one of the way, but i mean not only that. I may want to try out new things to get extra. Look for some other ways to earn more money, freelancing, do some business maybe.Resolution 4: Get myself my own place.
Well, i said get myself, i meant get it by myself (or else who would?). I hope i would be able to get myself my own place in the coming year (years). Although i still don't see the possibility is big enough, but i'll try hard. I always been trying, maybe not hard enough.Resolution 5: Meet more people.
I always have the face writing 'don't come near me!', or 'fuck off' or 'leave me alone'. I think i have the most unapproachable cibai face in the whole Singapore (well, i don't live there, but the dear place is famous with cibai faces). I never good at mingle with people, with stranger. Maybe i don't like to, or maybe i'm just bad at doing it. So, i hope i could change it, in order to have a more pleasant future in mingling.I'm not somebody that difficult to pleased, i'm think i'm kinna simple. I don't plan for something too extraordinary, or too impossible to happen. Ya, i know impossible is nothing, but impossible is also something that has the least possibility to happen. I know something could just never happen to sudden people.
UPDATE
I didn't mean to leave you guys outta my reason of staying in this place, so sorry. I might be in the situation of desperado, but i really didn't mean that. Of cause i like you guys, in fact, those are the reason i enjoyed working here. I might not meet as much people as i work in other company, but knowing you guys is just amazing. Being around you guys is so much fun (okay, excluded those stressful expensive lunch), maybe is because every each of you is so unique and hilarious, i just like you guys. So, don't be silly, of cause you are my favorite.
5 comments:
It's good to have a planning for the new coming year. Keep it up!
Ohh...its that time of the year for resolutions already?!! Yippee..
Well, i think getting ride of the tummy is REALLY that impossible. I tried it myself, but it still sitting comfortably on my hips everyday. Hows la..
And yes, i think you should just change your job. Don't think too much. If you hate it, change it. I think the problem is you're to comfortable at where you are and you're afraid you'll loose that comfort once you move on to another job. Well, it takes time to adjust to new environment. Eventually everything will turn out fine. Give it a try, coz you ever know..
And, about that cibai face, get a plastic surgery done. Nothing can be help. Not even make up, sister girl! Aww
How sweet to hear good things come out from your mouth, miss wanna. So touching, i'll take the advise, muaks. And thanks to hwan 2.
hm... any of them is easy to hit, just the "shape up" you really need some "desperate" on it. You have to understand we asian's body is born to not be shape.
i realize this solution myself :
IF - You eat really alot everyday, and you only gain 2kgs in 3 months... it's not a good sign at all... Because you NEED to eat LESS alot E.V.E.R.Y.D.A.Y for 3 months, then you only can slim back 2kgs.
And pitiful that, it means you need to gym alot EVERYDAY TOO for 3 months, and mayb you look more shape 20%... It depends on different people body. I guess your body is just like the kind i'm descript.
Come on, lets desperate to gain it.
*sob sob*
Then why did you tell me this, i don't wanna know...
*sob sob*
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