smash?

Yeah, i know it's been a while. Merry Xmas and happy new year. Suddenly i have a good feeling of writing. Could this be the longest time that i've ever written? Maybe.
I guess maybe i was pretty relax on myself lately, it could be good, or it could be faulty. I'm clueless.
The year is ending, maybe a little recap. My house loan has been approved, although it was too much hassle to talk about. Still single, not that i enjoy the current status, but i guess i'm getting adapted to it, hmm. Oh, the unidentified post titled the beautiful 10 days. Alright, it was good, i was happy, not that it's not good enough to put those in words, but i guess, maybe it's the best to label it anonymous. I guess it was sweet yet blur. Maybe because everything happen too fast, and it faded unnoticed. I didn't feel much bad about it, maybe just a bit uneasy. I thought his appearance meant something, who knows, it was just a smash hit. Taking it as a beautiful affair, seems to be the right way to get it over.
I'm getting good at this, i was unawarely moving on...

the beautiful 10 days

Tom Ford + Julianne Moore

A Single Man, a directorial debut from Tom Ford. Ya, Tom Ford! Always think he's super duper hot, he's just a definition of perfection to me. Didn't know he directed a film, it just got some good review & award from Toronto International Film Festival, that's how i heard of it. And Julianne Moore is in it! She's one of my favorite goddess actress, i love her. So can't wait to see it.

phew, 10 days...

Phew... from the start till the unwanted end, all in 10 days. I don't want to, but i guess till it starts again, it has to be ended...

It was a fast & furious 10 days, but it was memorable. Started with an unexpected meet up, like i never met any new friend for years, then suddenly there's an appearance of somebody, and it wasn't planned. Made a new friend, followed by a few nights of some get-to-know-each-other chat, till late. Then an opportunity of a half day off, a nervous but excited turn-out-to-be-a-date dinner. Later the night, we mmm but mm mmm, i was so hah ha. Had a break, i went back to hometown. After i got back, a crazy drinking party at friend's house, mmm... wow.. wooow.... wa. A meet up again 'yam cha' for some catching up. A movie date. And now, i just came back from a dinner, we talked, made up some mind, talked, and... no, i guess that's it.
It feels good, i enjoyed it, it was... i was happy. Still smiling at it.
At least i'm 90% thru that Geli... hahaha, that already worth laughing!

He likes to listen to Angels & Airwaves

contrast

I think i've been to heaven & hell all in 1 day. Today, my experience is so roller-coaster-ed. Actually, i had a bad morning, i was so down, it was so awful. Well, am not gonna say it, but it can be concluded as 折墮 (misery? what word suits better?). It means looking at what you are getting now after so much that you've done.

Then i went to settle my house signing documents. Then rush back to office for helping up Louis. Today is Elly birthday, we had a lovely dinner with her. It's like i was in hell in the morning, went for a transit for heaven in the making, then jump onto a fast lane adventure helping out a friend. Then having dinner in heaven, i mean the dinner was nice. Ha...

a big step

Just realized it's been long time again since i last dropped by here.

I've taken another big step in my life. I bought a house. Or should i say i just paid for the downpayment.
Last few weeks has been crazy for me, i've been looking around for condos or places, till last week i saw this place, though it was just the fourth place i saw, but i thought it was nice, most of the things seem fit, and i just paid for the booking. I know i was a bit impulsive, i didn't plan to do it so quick, i thought like just shop around, slowly hunt for the right place, taking time in this few months, then this place just came into the picture, it just seems irresistible, so...
Alright, here's the deal, it doesn't required 10% of the down payment, and it has so much offers, rebate on booking, early bird rebate, free kitchen cabinet, air-conS, shower screen, marble top basin, 2'x2' porcelain tiles. It's all about wow.
So last few days was all about am i making the right decision? Was it too fast? Am i gonna regret? Is it the right place? The price, the location, the design, the floor, the layout... oh my. So came to today, done.
It'd be ready next year fall, i'll have my own place.

My unit is at where the pink arrow pointed, ya, it's outside of the picture... :)

weekend shopping spree

Wow, it was crazy, i've never done this in a long time, i hardly go for shopping for quite some time, but it felt good, really good, except after i found out how much i spent. :p

I knew i spent a couple of hundreds, but i didn't know it was this much, i spent over 5oo! Alright, it might not be that much to some people, but it is to me. Anyway, i bought a lot. 2 days, 3 places, 3 pairs of shoes, ya 3 pairs, 3 tees, 3 pairs of socks, 3 pairs of underwears, 1 pair of shorts. For so much things, 500 is not a bad deal huh?

It was still crazy.

New Balance classic sneaker, RM151

Pull & Bear canvas shoe, RM99

Puma 80's skate shoe, RM71

future

I was listening to this CD on my way home just now. And it was the first time i find this song cute. It titled 'future' sang by HOCC, the HK singer who just came out recently.

Here's how cute it is,

繼續期待 我只要 繼續期待
我喜愛 繼續期待 我不要得到你
願你永遠似 將會上畫的好戲
讓我密切地去等下期
繼續期待 我只要 繼續期待
我喜愛 繼續期待 我不要 找到你
讓我對世界 充滿細小的希冀
任我在塑造你 有多美
你是我未開封那盒顏色筆
你是我未兌換那張飛機票
你是我未敢穿那件露肩的新裝
你是我未拜會那間動物園
別馬上揭開 沒有懸疑性怎麼會可愛

你是我未翻開那部漫畫書
你是我未去學那種拉丁舞
你是我未打開那份成績通知單
你是我未偶遇那些櫻花雪
任結局再好 但滿懷期盼比得到可愛

It translated as,
Continue to anticipate, I only want to carry on anticipating
I love to, carry on anticipating, I don't want to get you
wish you would always be, a great coming soon movie
Let me wait intently for the closing

Continue to anticipate, I only want to, carry on anticipating
I love to, carry on anticipating, I don't want to find you
Let me be brimming with tiny wishes for this world
Allow me to mould you, how perfect
You are my yet to be opened box of colour pencils
You are my yet to be redeemed plane ticket
You are my yet to be worn shoulder-bearing new clothes
You are my yet to be visited zoo
Don't reveal immediately, how would it be lovely without suspense?

You are my yet to be flipped comics
You are my yet to be learnt latin dance
You are my yet to be opened result report
You are my yet to be encountered cherrie blossoms
However wonderful the ending is,
imbued with anticipation is more lovely than obtaining

CISIN. Well, it sounds crazy, but imagine, it's just a twist theway of thinking. How lovely would it be if you could think otherwise, instead of suffering. Isn't it cute? Of cause, saying is always easier than doing.

what a quetion!

I posted a question on FB, Where are you?
It's a simple question, it just pop up to my head. Isn't it a question that i've been looking for answer? Then for matter of who is 'you'? It could be everything.

for the sake of doing something

Browsing thru my blog, OMG, it's getting so so so boring, no pictures, no colors, no nothing!

For the sake of doing something, i guess i have to do something!

Just watched the 'New Moon' latest teaser, the film has been gathering tons of buzz, people are talking so much about the film, but the film haven't even showed until end of this year. I know a lot people are crazy about the film after they watched 'The Twilight', well, i don't hate, but it's just too big to ignored, even if you don't like it, it's everywhere. Of cause most of the people are after Edward Cullen, but i found another hot piece, whom i think is hotter, he's Jacob Black, the werewolf.

catcing up

I had a dinner with my lovely girlfriend last night. It felt great. I never talked so much in a long time. Me and her can really talk, and it's something that i never thought about, not when we first met. I mean we are so so so different, our friends, background, everything, but we really can talk, even when there are only 2 of us. It doesn't happen very often i guess, or to most of the people, like if i ask you, how many friends of yours who can talk with you 1 on 1. Well, i have sa few, and she's 1 of them.
1 of highlight of the dinner is, she's the third friend of mine who told me that 'she's dating' in 1 week. Ya, at first i didn't realize that, then when i was smiling at her, she asked, what are you smiling for? Then i remembered, oh, she's the third, and it's all happened in a week. Is that a coincidence, or something else, i don't know. But i'm so happy for them, wishing them the best.
It was also a good dinner for laughter, that's it felt so great. I guess i've been having so little laughter lately, it's so minimal. Not that i don't know what is going on, just that i don't even have the energy to bother it. I don't know, i feel powerless on everything, nothing seems right. My company is having so much trouble around, retrenchment, pay-cut, everybody is leaving, though this bother me the least, but the 'qi' already is so negative. My body condition is getting worse, i'm not sure whether is physically or mentally, my backache is getting worse, i'm easily get tired, or am i already old?!?, shit, i'm just fucking 28! Not to say my worst part, it haunts me the most. Sigh, everything is... wrong. I hate to say it, but i can't lie.
So, thanks for the dinner.

update

Bernard has left to Sichuan... with his husband this Monday. Wishing him all the best, happy for him.

Know this guy from louis' Facebook friend list, was trying to add him, he hasn't reply.

It was Lychee's wedding last Saturday, it was a fun night, everybody enjoyed it very much. Pictures are spreading on the net these 2 days. Happy married life.

farnie

People used to think that whenever they see me online, i'm in the office, even when it's on Sunday night. Well, darlings, honeys and babes, it's not anymore, i can online at home already!!!!!!!! Hahahahahahahahaha.

travelling...

I've traveled more than 1400 kilometers in the last 3 days. Whoa, i've never thought i would've done that. It was crazy, please don't ask me to ever do that again.
I drove back to hometown on Wednesday, then took bus went all the way down to Singapore at the night, arrived on Thursday morning. Paid a visit to my brother, spent a day there, went to Johor on the day at night. Spent the next day in JB visiting my elder sis, then went back to Perak at night, arrived the next morning. Got a little rest, then drove back again to KL at noon. Haha, now that when i thought back, ya, it was crazy.
So, i wouldn't call it a trip, it was more than a race. Well, i didn't think it would be a vacation neither, i was going with my mum, my sis and my niece, i was there to spend money on them, carry luggages for them, it was tiring.
This shouldn't be read by my family, but i'm not going to lie, the cheeriest moment of the trip was when i met Skey, it was the highlight of the trip, we were so happy to see each other. And also i met Bernard, and his boyfriends. The dinner was nice, despite the place and the heat. It's was really nice to meet Chris and Gary, they are nice people. We were quite concern about these 2 ang mo of Bern's, but after we met, i somehow had the feeling of relief. I'm happy that they found each other, happy that Bernard has somebodies to be taken care of, it was sweet seeing them together.
I wish mine is on the way...

msn

I just logged onto msn just now, then i put up, do you remember when was the last time you see me here, i don't... haha, pathetic...

slap me

Can somebody just slap me and wake me up? I really shouldn't be sleeping anymore.

a year a title

I just past a year here in this company early this month. It's like i've been here for years. I know the year wasn't easy, hence i've been through a lot. But that doesn't stop time from passing by so fast. On last Friday, we had a staff meeting , and my promotion was announced. It was't unexpected, i've been told already, it should be exciting, i guess, i am too, but at the same time, i got all the mixed up emotion. Even when i first thought of blogging this, it was in good mood, then when i'm writting it, mmm, it turns the other way round. Everything seems not quite fit, or timing is the word that could say it all? Is a year too early? Also the co is not doing well, so a promotion doesn't seems conducted. The position i got has never existed, it's been made up for me. Then there goes the job scope, everybody including me is confused on what am i suppose to do, or how far could it go? To make it worse, i'm actually still doing what i was doing, ya, so that making sense to my new title, SOS, same old shit.

new glasses

or more than like?

Okay, it definitely was not, not that i wish it was. But i enjoyed it very much, much more than much.
Being picked up (without asked for). Went for a more than average Japanese lunch. He paid for the lunch. He got the popcorns. i bought the movie tickets. Watched a movie. Shopped for a while. He bought a pair of shoes (which i saw it sometimes before, wanted to buy but couldn't get the size, coincident.). Then I droved his car leaving the mall to meet a friend, and dinner together, with another friend (okay, this is a bit off). I almost felt like it was, maybe a kiss or two was the only missing...
:-)

support

If blog should be a diary basis narrative or a regularly update record of incidents , then i think i need to label a lot of my post 'covered' .
Last week i went back to my hometown to attend a wedding dinner. At the dinner, i met with this old friend of mine who was my secondary schoolmate. We always have this chemistry going around, we can talk. Well, a lot. We've met not more than 5 times since we left school, but every time we meet, we can just talk. The night was content, we were talking like there were no tomorrow, even the guy who sat next to me asked us did we even stop talking for a second? We had so much update from each other. Then i found out that she actually read my blog! I've never intended to have my blog read by many people, but i think every blogger would please whenever their blog is noticed. I was so happy to hear that, she got all story from here, she never missed. She aware of things going around me. I thank her for being so supportive, for a supportive reader of my blog, for being supportive for my choices. Thank you, babe.
She's gonna be a mama by end of the year, hope that she'll be all well.

feels like dating

i said like.

move in move out

My ex-house mate moved out yesterday, i have a new house mate just moved in.

new toy old toy?

I got myself a new phone. A new phone in quite a long time, the last 2 was second hand. It is K800i. Ya, it a very old model, but i like it. Besides, i think i have a hundred and 1 reasons to have this. First, i was so desperately wanted to get rid of the previous 1, i thought i liked it, but i didn't. Then none of any recent model could attract me, those that i like are expensive, those that i could afford i don't like, Sony's W series seem ideal, but i didn't want to get the 4th Walkman phone in a roll.
I'm sticking to Sony Ericsson, i like the brand a lot, so for non-Walkman phone, for good deal price, for cool function and design, K800ish phones are just perfect. K800i has always been my favorite, it was my dream phone when it was first launched, now the price has dropped, isn't it just nice. So, there are 38 reasons already. The 39th is... him, the 40th is him, the 41th... the 101th, ya still him, There goes the 101 reasons.

I guess the phone i bought is pretty much the last stock in the market. It's 1 of the oldest model that are still selling in the market. Sigh, then there are some dramatic experience gone thru during the time i buy it, but it's just too annoyed to remember or to tell, so forget about it. I just hope i will love the phone.

the earth hour

Ya, it was so last week, and i participated. Well, you might say So? I wouldn't have answered 'so am proud of it'. I guess it's really not a big deal, not to me, but it's the least we could do, isn't it? It wasn't hard for me, or 1 hour is just too easy.

Then i went back to hometown last Friday, for Qingming festival. On Friday night, after we had dinner, the power supply was disconnected. It started at 9, we thought it would recover in 2-3 hours, but it didn't, the electricity was back on the next day. Then when i thought back, the earth hour wasn't anything strange to me, it used to happen so often to me. When i was young, having electricity cut off is just so normal, it happens. My siblings and I even had our own torch, when the storm comes, (ya, we knew the power would stopped every after heavy rain storm.) we wouldn't panic when the lights off, we knew where to get our torch. We would light it up and get somewhere, mostly our bed to hide up to read, to listen to walkman, or to play with our toys. Sometimes, we even felt happy because then we could also play with candles. Only when it happened on hot days, we suffered more, because it was so hot that we could not get to bed at night. It was quite some time ago, i don't even remember when was the last i met that since i moved to the city, now only i know it still happens. Maybe it just can't be helped, if we still live in that small town...

I was at home at the earth hour.

my phone camera is bad.

movie marathon in a long time

I watched some movies last week, most of them are Oscar nominees. Though the Oscar was over, but the nomination list is always a movie choice guide for me to follow. I've watched Milk, Slumdog Millionaire, The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, Vicky Christina Barcelona, Revolutionary Road, and The Reader all in a roll. I'm not really a Award follower geek, but kinna a Oscar goer. I do believe in this theory, i don't have all the time for all the movies, but at least i know that the award mentioned movies are worth watching, at least at some points. For Milk, i would've watch it, for the matter of the subject. For Benjamin Button, the sake of the celebrities stardom power. For Vicky Christina Barcelona, the hot Spanish couple instead of Woody Allen. For Revolutionary Road and The Reader, we have the Extraordinary Kate Winslet. For Slumdog, it's a no, not before all the awards it got, but after i watched it, of cause i found the uniqueness of it, sure it has its way to manage all the awards, including winning the best picture of Oscar.

James Franco in Milk

Pitt & Blanchett in The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Cruz & Bardem in Vicky Christina Barcelona

Slumdog Millionaire

Winslet in The Reader

bad thing, good thing

I thought i have losing the faith of blogging, now i guess, maybe i've been too busy, maybe i was really losing my faith on blogging, maybe i just shouldn't force myself to write. When words come to your head, you'll know what to write.
My company had a staff meeting last Friday, so news announced that my company isn't doing well, or bad or pretty bad. We are losing money, a lot of money. So the company trip is postponed, or to be more frank, it's canceled. It's not unexpected, and i didn't see anybody was having so much of disappointment. But for me...
He wasn't going, he couldn't. He had a plan on flying back to his hometown. We were first planned to share a room on the trip. But the date fell on the same day he planned to go back. Then i thought i didn't fell good about going too. So now when the trip is called off, i fell... cool.

what an extinct species

Well, i still have nothing about myself to blog, but i heard of something every extraordinary today. My bff, El, told me that she lost her purse today, but she was so fuxking unbelievably lucky found it after 2 hours. Okay, this is how it happened, She lost it at somewhere, and couldn't find it, or didn't even know where she lost it. So everybody told her to give up and get it reported, of cause i would have asked her to do that also. then after she reported the lost, somebody called up her 2nd phone, which she left in the house while she was out. The guy called a couple of time and left a message to ask El to call back. So after she got home, she saw the message. She immediately called back, and that was the guy who picked up her purse. Then she arranged a time to meet up to get back her purse. OMG, she is so fuxking lucky, even i told her that i doubted myself would do that. There was a few hundreds in her purse, i'm so not believe that this is happening in this world. Even El herself had gave up after a few searches, she knew that if somebody had picked it up, she would have no change to get it back. That guy is real good man, his name is Danny Goh, well, he gave his name card to El. You good, Danny.

Mmm, at least good things still happen.

happy birthday

Happy? well, quite too, because he's next to me now. Not celebrating with me, we are both working. Still, that makes me a happy birthday. Ya, pathetic, ya, i know, but can't help it.

happy cny 2009

Still can make it since today is the last day of this year cny. Wow, i've been so left out from the blogging world for so long. This thingy has been fading off, if the last post was a milestone for me, then carry on for the next 1 is difficult.
I'm still fucked up with my love life. Work is still busy, but fortunately it's in a different way. How should i say this, i'm actually still doing what i was doing, but at the same time, i'm learning and working on something new, totally new for me, and i have so much fun doing it. I'm supposed to be more busy than i was, because beside working on my own job, i have to occupy extra time for my extra new job scoop. It's hell busy, but at least i know what i'm doing, and i'm enjoy doing, hopefully soon i'll be all on this, and fuck the old job position.

happy new year 2009

happy new year 2009.
This is also my 100th post. Wow, what a milestone. This is definitely an accomplishment for me, i think i've never written that much in my life. Congrats.